Alone

It's a funny thing. I never felt very lonely when I lived in my apartment. It wasn't that I was surrounded by people. It was more that my life was so boring that I couldn't envision anyone else hanging around. (Do we call that depression?)

Now that I'm at the farm, I'm having more fun than I've had in years, and I find that occasionally I feel lonely. Go figure.

Restorative

When I need to relax, I go to Lake Michigan. Do you have a place that by its very essence calms you, makes you happy?

Things That Make Me Sad

No one ever carved their initials with mine on a tree.

Lonely Sounds

Midnight train.
Doves cooing. (I know, it's pathetic, but they always sound mournful to me.)
Wind soughing through the pine trees when you're walking in the woods alone.

Yours?

Sick

One of the bad things about living alone is that when you get sick, you are really alone. No one to hold your head or your hand, no one to yell at you, no one to tuck you back into bed. Alone. *sigh*

Woke up in the middle of the night with a bad case of the stomach upsets. Don't know if it was something I ate, overeating, or a bug, but man, I was sick! The cats seemed to sense something was wrong. Snuzzles likes to bite my nose to wake me up, but he would come close, I'd say "i'm sick" and he'd leave me alone. Whew.

Feeling better this morning, but everything is kind of achy, and the only food that sounds good is stale crackers. I have a load of dirt coming this morning for the flower gardens, but I bet I won't be doing too much shoveling today. (I know, I know, it's weird to bring in dirt when you live on a farm, but this is screened top-soil to go in the flower beds. I have three other flower beds besides the new one where the wall is.)

And, the sun is finally shining again, and when I opened my front window there were three deer grazing out in the field across the road. So life is good. It would be better shared, I think, but we do the best we can with what we've got.